the ninety seven, eleventh

She told me about him. She told me the truth about him. She says that I need to know the truth; I never knew the truth. He never tell me. None of them told me too and I suspect he never tells Her too. Should I or not? Is this my duty.
I hope I can still keep this up; not going down.
The moment she told me about it. I went down terribly. I could not recall when was the last time I experienced such feeling. I dropped; a lot.
I did once have the urge to take a U-turn, the many U turns that I have, at that very moment.

Life is complicated. Everyone wants to keep it simple, do it in a simpler way. Yet, it is too complicated to be simple. People do what they think suites them the best. There are no black or , and white. It is how you make it. Not the other way round.
I feel extremely thankful to have met such a person like her, to have her as... When I say extremely, I mean, extremely very and I mean it. I hope the best for her too, forever and ever in everything whatever she does now, then, after...

I spend quiet a time with her. That very night, it was really opened, everything. Never had I have met any such person who I could really do that. Because she is just she and I do believe that it is because I am very chicken out with it comes to things like that with anybody else.

I could not have ask for any more. I should not. I do not know what else to ask for any more. I am indeed very lucky. I am sure every one besides me and you are indeed very lucky too.
I have to manage the invisible part of me very well. I do not think I am the kind of person who could manage it very well. I need some time.
Mean while, just stay positive.

It has improve very much. Improved tremendously.

I hope the best for myself too! Life is just *any adjectives*.
I admit that I am not fully on track; at least, the Yes is more than the No at the moment now. Hoping that the No will keep decreasing, for the most part, not increasing.
Distraction is a medicine too, and of course that's include laughter, the best medicine. It seems that it looks like the term 'living in denial' comes together here. It sounds and looks awful to be living in denial. Life is about living in denial? Ho-ho Whatever!

At this moment, you see me; you don't comes together with it perfectly.