Today

or rather tonight; went for a dinner. Wedding dinner of none which I've met before. Or perhaps only once. Like even less than ten minutes kind. And hell no I'mma pay for that. As a result. I only gave a fifthy note. Ha-ha. That's a first. Heck. Not even my intention wanting to go. But ain't got no choice. The elders never even mentioned to even paying for me. Oh well. I have no idea what is the rationale behind all these. Pretty much just staring at blank space. Hardly spoke more than a full sentence during the few hours. Air staring seems very much challenging. Very very much. What's the point of all these right. Provided if those are more or less the famous kind. Of which they are. But ain't me. Ah well. It's all shoe polishing here and there. Seriously. Shaking them hands are the weirdest of all. Pretty sure they all feels the weirdest. Who da heck did they even invite me over. Or is that MY responsibility to reject them? Just so that its their 'obligation' to fake it, or as a courtesy to invite? Same goes to the other one. Like heck. Do I even very much close to her. Already I did put her on hold for wee weeks. Sayinig that I can't confirm. And still. Came back again to ask me. Don't you get it? Oh perhaps. Its pretty obvious that this is purely for the purpose of break even or suurplus making in the business of wedding ceremony from the very starts till very end. Ho ma. What's the point even. I shall not get it. Or should I? Ah well. Whatever amount of congratulation money I wanna give its all up to me innit? Shame or what. God knows who'll know. Laugh out loud. Regardless, did a very tough challenge today. Trying my best to stare at the air without being noticed as mental melt down. Ha! Amen to that.