mixture

There's lots of thoughts around but I do not know what I am thinking of. Thoughts are complicated, at times. Ha-ha. I thought of anything, everything whatever, what-so-ever...
because
today I went out for dinner. They talked about it. When I see them, I see regret. And they got my tail. Ouch! I felt the wastage. I do not know why I was once before like that.
and so all I need to do is just keep quiet.

I'm still hehe-haha. I do not know how long I can stay hehe-haha for. Can I afford to stay hehe-haha anymore? How many more hehe-hahas I can afford to be?

Like what she told me before, life is full of regret. Oh well, just be with it.

when it comes to that particular topic. It kinda get even worst. My tail got chopped!
*Sigh...
and when they continues with their talking, oh please stop it! and then again shhhhhh
It is not that I want it to be like this or that, neither does anyone anybody.
I felt sorry when it comes to that particular topic. I couldn't bother not to feel so. I dunno whyyyyyyyyyyy I'm so stupid.

hmmm I should try to not care! Living in denial again! :P