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and again, I feel so blessed. I don't think there's anymore else I could ask for.
Happy 090909! Based on my previous 20+ experiences here, celebrating this so called some special date was never a reality. I could never even dream about it.

But tonight was totally an exception. Totally. Entirely. Absolutely. Amazingly. Awesomely.
That was my second macadamia white chocolate. The first was on her birthday.
And we sang happy birthday to the family, our family. How spontaneous. How never-ness.
And again, we laugh, terribly... Amazingly, awesomely.
everyone here seems to know how to make jokes very well!
and em, that was the time where I got partly subsidized! I refused to get fully subsidized because I presumed that is the right thing for me to do. :) Pengta, Camera.

Oh well, you don't need to have a reason to celebrate, in anyway. As for today, he took the 090909 as an excuse to celebrate ho-ho-ho.

Earlier today, it was my very few and limited chance for him to invite me. For the very limited times again, I started to feel the comfort in having some conversation with him. It just have to come to an end when it's going to get started well *sigh* Life's indeed full of regret!
On the down side however, he talked about it. I started to feel unfair if I were to be literally forced to follow as what is told; just because I chose to study... as oppose to him; he got the right track to get away from it. I felt the pressure, the forced from it. However it would be almost impossible for a person like me to voice it out. I hate thinking for The Later, let's not think about it. Kenny

And then again, earlier today again, when I was having The Breakfast with him and his friends; they talk something about it. I guess I'll had to put away my ........-ness, start to scoop him some when we're on the table before I leave. jiak chai

Gotta start my day early tomorrow; got to fly them off.
and the down side is... I started to get held back a whee bit, ok maybe not a whee bit. Quite some... urgh I hate this feeling. Please don't. Puh-leaseeeeee
Don't think about it. Let me 'stay' in denial for some time. :P

I wish all the best for them in anything, anyway, everything, anything, whatever. I do hope that they are blessed as me always. All the best!